Starting weight: 185
Goal weight: 130
Current weight: 163
Lost so far: 22 pounds
Today I finally saw the number 163 appear on my scale. It seems like a pretty random number to get excited about, but I've been waiting for this one for a while. Why? Because at 5'2", 163 pounds puts my BMI at 29.8, which means that I am no longer categorized as obese (still overweight, yes, but not obese). It's kind of silly because I've actually never put much stock in the BMI as a measure of health, but I actually started to cry a little bit when I saw that number on the scale this morning. I try not to care too much about categories and statistics, but I have to admit it feels good to know that that word doesn't describe me anymore.
I believe that this process is teaching me a lot about persistence and commitment. I have had a lot of bad days since I started this, a lot of days where I ate all the wrong things or skipped a workout (or both). A lot of days where it just seemed really hard (although, thankfully, a lot of days where it seemed easy, too). But I can honestly say that I haven't once considered giving up. I am getting better at just letting the bad days roll off and reminding myself that just because today is hard doesn't mean tomorrow will be. Even if it happens slower than I would like, I will get there.
One last thing. At a Relief Society meeting this week we learned about yoga and meditation. I want to try to do a little meditating and I was looking for mantras or affirmations to repeat to myself that might help with the weight loss (yes, I'm kind of a hippie, get over it). This was my favorite: "I treat my body with love and kindness." Isn't that really what this is all about? I'm not depriving my body when I turn down junk food, I'm showing it kindness by choosing something that will help it function and feel better. I'm not punishing my body by pushing really hard in my workouts, I'm showing it love by making it stronger. I really want to try to remember that every day.
I'm really kind of soapbox-y, aren't I?
5 comments:
Hi Aim. Your post made me cry. I'm very proud of you and I miss you a whole lot. If you'll just keep getting up every morning, I will too. Even when it promises to be a crappy day. Love you, Yefalf.
Yefalf made me cry! I haven't thought about that in a long time. I love you too.
I appreciate the way you are changing for focus. I hope you can keep it up. Maybe I should start thinking that way too.
I know, they are just numbers, but also goals. Good for you!
Shan
I don't know why Google Reader neglected to give me the opportunity to read these older posts of yours. Well, here I am anyway, late but happy to read you.
I'm with you on the hippie chants. I have some Kundalini workout DVDs that focus a lot on mantras. I change them to suit myself, but I love them.
So happy for you. Process is everything. Mile markers are beautiful too, and I'm glad you've passed some wonderful ones.
Miss you!
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